As an adult, I stilled lived out certain learned behaviors. Just as things would settle into predictable routines, I’d get an itch to change things. When you move as often as I did, staying in one place feels unnatural. Just when I was reaching some level of success in a job, I would do something to ruin it.
It wasn’t until I found healing that I recognized what I was doing. The Lord got me to an emotional state where it was acceptable for me to allow good things to happen and to stay put. I thank the Lord for my dear family who loved me through a few of these cycles before it got better.
Take Away: Kids growing up in chaotic homes often don’t know what to do when things are normal.